ADAMS...

Okay so there's this guy I like, let's call him ADAMS for the moment, and like my cousin (the one I was with yesterday) saw him in the same restaurant as she is! And she told me he went in with a girl and apparently the family is there too!

She isn't replying anymore! I'm in the middle of a full panic attack......... It's like I want him so bad and I'm totally NOT on his radar; sometimes it feels I am but sometimes it's not. And I'm not even sure if he has a gf already or not.. and oh my god, breathe Lu, breathe.

Why does this happen to me? Why when I am interested in someone he's not interested back? It's so annoying, frustrating... saddening. :( I want to cry for real... I mean, I know he's going back to his country so it's kinda useless but I mean... GOD.

I need a hug people. :S

With love xoxo